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do you know the feeling that it was her fault and you end up being the bad guy! that's how i freaking feel right now...
i just really hate people who gives advices and lectures me about their own principles or ideologies or whatevers in life, but never apply it in theirs, and she commits the same freaking crime... it seems so plastic and so... (thinking of the right word... can't seem to find the right term)....
... well, this gurl rants on that she hates people getting stuff without permission. The ironic thing here is she does it to other people, specifically ME! She knows how irritating it feels to have something robbed from you, and in the end of all your searching, you would find out that it was with her all along... GRRR! I just do hope that at least they would confess right away that they did something wrong... and i'm an understanding person, i sure can understand whatever reason she can come up with...
... so i called her up at the office and ask if she got my stuff! She denied it at first... as if she can get away with it! In the end, she is forced to say the freaking truth! SHE'S GUILTY! And it pisses me off! Lying to me... do i have to keep everything from everybody! FOR SHEESH SAKE! can't i have some privacy!
... and so i was pissed off... and so somebody heard our conversation (pakshet ang chismosa!) and she got angry at me coz i was disturbing her at work! Because of me, she won't be able to concentrate back to work coz i was saying bad things at her! (FOR SHEESH SAKE, ito lang ang mga natatandaan kong bad things na sinabi ko... asshole and kakainis ka talaga). Like for us, its so normal to say that!
So now, its all my freaking fault... she lectured me for 30 minutes and here we go again... the past wrong deeds were out again in the open plus what i've done SINFULLY wrong today at "her"... like hell, thats done, thats over... like it so ancient that you gotta dig it up... next subject puhlease... give me a freaking break here! The point is don't give me advices or lecture me on stuff when you yourself are doing the freaking crime! And what happened to the major moral of the story... the reason why my temper went off is because she got something without any permission! Ain't this more significant than being really greedy or selfish of my stuff!
DAMMIT!
I would just like to say to that "GUILTY" person... yeah sure i love ya man, but sometimes you really tick me off! You gotta change that attitude... walang sense ang pagQ-Q mo kung di mo rin i-aapply sa everyday living mo! Don't do unto others, if you don't want others do unto you (tama ba itech?) basta ganun! Of all people, i should not be keeping things from you... or should i?
Is it so wrong to get angry, do i always have to play the angelic one, do i always have to be freaking patient?!?... TAO LANG PO AKO!
I should be doing my freaking thesis but no... i'm ranting about my pathetic state! Ako ngayon yung di makapagconcentrate sa thesis ko!
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